I care because you do

cyberpvcfairy @ 2005-12-16T16:59:00

2005-12-16T06:02:29Z

manly was gorgeous and I cant wait to carry on exploring around sydney on the bike which I have borrowed from my work mate, Ive been biking to work and Im finding the work out fantastic, it also gives me freedom to go places which are otherwise too far to walk or inaccessible by public transport- SYDNEYS PUBLIC TRANSPORT IS SHIT!

Have a good weekend

lost mobile

2004-01-05T09:30:40Z

hope everyone had a good new years
mine was mediocre
it was lovely to see uwe dance though *G*
just for the record ive lost my phone, to those who know me well this will come as no suprise but hey its gone
so if everyone would email me there numbers and ill get them put on my mobile as soon as possible, and it will be the same number.
home in 2 days (yeah ive had a good time here but i really miss home too much now)
happy new year, cunts *G*
xxx

interesting events

2003-12-19T15:16:45Z

after spending far too much time getting fit and surfing i have turned my mind to other areas of entertainment
im off sandboarding tomorrow (this is what they do in areas of the country which you cannot snowboard in i take it)
i am very much looking forward to it but what to wear?
and on sunday im going sky diving
I CANT WAIT
its all too exciting and in one week im meeting up with my gorgeous and soon after that sarah and uwe for a stomping time in jo'burg
many amusing cocktail parties with art curators have been had recently which have been both interesting and extremely dull
BRING ON SUNDAY

south africa :D

2003-12-09T17:32:34Z

the weather has now cleared and it has stopped raining
the people arent staring as much as i thought
were staying in a gorgeous area called franschhoek and were off to go on a safari tomorrow
4 days of safari staying n huts with wild animals roaming outsides and no electricity
parents and usual family arguments
crap internet :(
missing last days of school
and will be soon renting a house near cape town and surfing all day

the more time i spend in hot countries the more i love them
i am now considering doing my degree in sydney for art :D
i have also stopped feeling as anxious, maybe its the weather

update
everyone have the most amazing new years and christmas, im over here until the 7th january so i wont be there for either.
i miss untermensch but i cant wait to see him when he gets out here

drug/cocain article in THE FACE

2003-10-27T15:46:13Z

"snotty-nosed, self-confident wankers, sad wankers, sad people trying to look cool, pikeys, people who can afford it, the easily-led people, people up for a good time, people with a steady income and no responsibility, famous people, people with no donfidence, rich people, wannabes, emotionally unstable people, wankers, arseholes, people that care, gays, media types, hard people, people involved in acting and the theatre, think-they're-it-girls, peple iwth mobile phones, post teenage e-users, psychos, people living in cities, hyperactive people with trendy hair, career criminals, loud champgne-y people, people under pressure..."

CAN YOU SPOT YOURSELF?

this was a cocain issue published by the FACE a year ago, called "somethink like a phenomenon", its excellent amusing and informative, not the usual drugs are bad for you.
still amuses me

HYSTERIA

2003-09-24T18:44:16Z

general hysteria has broken out across the sixth form house at Benenden School for Girls...

the boys have arrived
*chuckle*

on a more positive note

2003-09-18T20:04:10Z

i joined benenden girls school croquet team today
this is the most amusing team i have ever joined
how typical...a public school girl in uniform playing croquet...civilised i think not...its all about pissing off the other team members it seems and is very vicious
cant you see im now turning into a proper public school girl
along with drama auditions today has been hectic...i really wish to get the part as the spoilt rich teenage coke head...who would of thought benenden would put on something as controversial considering the abortion scene in cabaret was removed for being just that
i very much look forward to entering croquet competitions...it will be a shocker

on a lighter again note...embarassment occured when my art history teacher walked into a room as i was walking out when i walked back in i heard the last 30 seconds of vnv's cold blaring out...when i realised to my embarassment what he was listening to i turned it off and he said "oh matilda i was enjoying that"...eeek
xxx

ideas, thoughts and musings

2003-09-17T22:00:10Z

wishes for: an alarm which beams the time onto the ceiling therefore one would not have to turn over to find out the time and could immediatly fall back to sleep on looking at the ceiling

has discussed at great length: whether humans concept of mortality has come from God or whether it is dependent of God...both appears to be possible but of course being an atheist i believe that humans can be moral without believing in God

hates: 70's disco tunes which are danced to in aerobics (has been told that one is allowed to bring in dance music for everyone to try- gabba anyone?)

william shakespeare was bisexual and most of his sonnets were written to an unknown man the most recent estimation has been interesting and various

wants more than ever: a gay househusband to look after me and mark...it would be fantastic alienfox has offered...this appears to be very favourable

xxx

yay

2003-09-09T12:42:43Z

i do love her

You are Fetish Dita!

Which Dita Von Teese Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

i am to say pleased with this result... :D but then any would of been ok
xxx

i think im in love...

2003-09-08T21:49:39Z

totally amazing...my new 5" platforms are beautiful creations in their own right and now i can be a prestigous 5'7"

only complication...
on walking myself to the train station i decided that i wanted to have a wheel on bag to carry my stuff in...only on leaving my house i realised while trying to walk down the road that i couldnt reach the handle of the said bag because my arms werent in proportion to my legs...it was a staggered journey

other than that i am a bit of a emotional wreck for no apparent reason

2 good quotes said today at my readers circle meeting:

"its about sex but intellectuals will say its about love" about rapture

"one would never like the idea of heroin being served over the counter at boots BUT by the end of the novel you would agree" said in one poshest voice about ben eltons high society

xxx

crusifixes anyone???

2003-09-05T09:45:28Z

am in the process of writing my art "dissitation" not actually a dissitation at all as it is only 3,000 words but that is what they have been named

i need to find modern artists (20th century) who use crusifixes and images of Jesus in their art

if anyone could help i would be entirely grateful...i have so far decided to use

Antony Gormley
Francis Bacon
Stanley Spencer (possibly though i will have to research this more)
Salvador Dali
Sutherland (similar situation to Spencer)

im also researching byzantine art and the periods leading up to 20th century religious art...the exhibition seeing salvation should be useful

any ideas
thanks
xxx

quotations

2003-09-02T22:19:04Z

the quotation
"ignorance is bliss"
is taken out of context by those who use it in mose cases

the actual full quotation of this line
"where ignorance is bliss, it be a folly to be wise."
shows how wrongly it is used by so many when it is used
i really like the idea Thomas Gray is presenting in his poem Odes to a distant prospect of Eton College and i think his words are wrongfully used by many

i will not go into the history of the saying "beyond the pale" now either as im sure this will interest very few of you

this a bible reading have been the highlights of my evening...corinthians and acts here i come

xxx

cyberpvcfairy @ 2003-08-10T01:14:00

2003-08-10T00:30:46Z

sea swimming has been gorgeous
freezing your entire body for a few glorious seconds until one becomes accustomed to the water...

tomorrow my attendence shall be summonded to a slow food picnic which is taking place up a very large hill
the idea behind slow food is the exact opposite of fast food...they take a long time preparing gorgeous and beautifully presented food...it is exquist and wonderful...
their icon is a snail (bless)
it should be a fun filled experience

also took myself to my first ever 'rave' styled thing
was excellent but my attention was waining...there was the most fantastic digaree do playing...two playing in accordance...but tiredness and my bed won over lack of sleep and staying up all night...though the idea of spending the night on the island did seem appealing when i was on the ferry going home

also got my first try on a hov pod yesterday...its my new toy i love it...of course its a big hovercraft toy and its not really mine but...

xxx
also according to tom waites the paino is drunk and needs a hearing aid :$

update: i have been having conversation to a recently retired english woman who has been converted to an indian cult type thing changing her name from sarah to dakshina (trivial detail) and she has been telling me about how these experiences out in india and how its made her realise how not to be selfish...she did not describe selfish as doing things which others do not like or self absorbtion but instead as looking at the bigger picture...seeing how trivial everything is...it makes me ask the question what is selfishness and is it a concept invented by someone to make others feel guilty for being happy???i like the idea of things being trivial as for one reason fucking up does not become so important...im very happy at the moment as i love my friends and the support that i have everywhere and like deathbypeaches has been commenting im very lucky to be me...thank you everyone

oh suprise suprise

2003-08-10T00:10:27Z

Take that in any form you'd like. You could be a DJ, you could paint, you could write, you could even code. Still, you hold whatever you do as Art. You are passionate, and you can also try too hard.

What kind of goth are you?

Created by ptocheia

lol
xxx

travelling arguements and happiness

2003-08-08T00:43:36Z

its so beautiful out here
i remember why i found it hard to leave last time i visited
oh yes i did return to my parents house in ireland for the weekend and im happy to be doing so...
the last few weeks have been a major lacking in energy for me and ive been missing various things because of falling asleep

journey was horrendous
mother decided that she wanted me to take her lakelands plastic cutlery with me to ireland had major trauma with her as i couldnt carry her bags but eventually managed to do so (much manovering here due to my bags and hers

on the metal steps on the tube i fell down hitting my shins and i kept on falling down a flight of stairs shredding my legs...well cutting and brusing them lots...and my bag was open and i had loads of fruit in it and it fell on the ground...got on the tube was soo shocked i started crying and couldnt stop

uncle had to get off his train and come and rescue me

then scary man sat opposite me and asked me about my belief in god
i told him i was an atheist and he lauched at me
he told me that our consciences come from god and therefore etc...i counter aruged this stating that i had studied ethical theories surrounding the ideas of conscienceness linking to god and not linking and had decided not to believe in god (though i was already an atheist) and he still wouldnt leave me alone
this was the second time this happened in 2 days
but luckily very camp uncle stepped onto the train and saved me

got to airport and they had sold my ticket on my plane (i had to fly business as economy tickets stop being sold 24hrs before the flights and i booked 20 hrs before i flew) and then i had to wait for another plane...but i got compensation (216 euros fucking hell :D)

finally arrived here though
and it was worth it
the drive home alone was worth it...the countryside here is so gorgeous...i never thought id come back here out of choice but im glad ive changed

and when i bumped into ppl i hadnt seen in a year everyone was lovely happy and kind and ive had a fab time...yeay for me

hopefully back in london on monday but maybe later...results on thursday
not sure of plans but would love to see ppl
xxx

just a quick note

2003-08-06T15:27:54Z

all those intersted in noize

uwe told me that on the 16th august dj's inyan and halo7 are coming to dj at slimelight
this will be something to look forward to as the held a dj competition against uwe and kelly (sp i know its spelt wrong), which uwe and kelly won, in leipzig and theyre coming over to dj with them again in slimes :D
yeay
xxx

cyberpvcfairy @ 2003-08-06T16:12:00

2003-08-06T15:19:27Z

objective for the day: quit my art course

was severly pissed off with the st martins art teacher who was excessivly rude towards me when i turned up yesterday
though i admit was a day and a half late (the excuse was a migrane which she believed) and then when i did produce a piece of work she discredited it and to be honest my mother booked me onto a this course and i have no interest in half of it (i dont enjoy painting)

so i quit the course today
spent a glorious day walking around my area (Finally picking up a parcel from the posting office has been there for 5 weeks)
and i walked through hyde park and took a look in the serpentine
was glorious
also have brought a very cool hat

oh and i got another piercing...oh yes the obsession is far from over

only decision i have to make is do i go to ireland for the weekend considering i dont have any plans for the weekend and my parents are willing to treat me and also ill see some ppl who really want to see me

but the piercing will be a problem

oh i also have a new girlfriend (beams)
oh and i was give 7 cds full of mp3's (thank you dear...bless)
xxx

cyberpvcfairy @ 2003-08-04T10:43:00

2003-08-04T17:49:31Z

quick update
weekend was excellent and lazy
i had a great deal of fun
hope all are well and will update more when i have more time
happy national orgasm day to everyone who missed it...it was on thursday
anyway happy me
oh and I NEED A NEW LJ NAME i find my lame and annoying and embarrassing to repeat to ppl
im not cybery or a pvc fairy
er
anyway
xxx

cyberpvcfairy @ 2003-07-31T01:40:00

2003-07-31T00:36:45Z

matilda is the #707 most common female name.
0.015% of females in the US are named matilda.
Around 19125 US females are named

im suprised its that popular
this made me laugh though

matilda is a very rare male name.
Very few men in the US are named matilda.
Be proud of your unique name!
source namestatistics.com

sorry i update too much at the same time i will stop now

cyberpvcfairy @ 2003-07-31T01:24:00

2003-07-31T00:29:40Z

had another smashing (such a public school word (sorry)) evening with deathbypeaches cyber_child silky_fish and uwe...thank you to all of you it was fun and i hope to do this again soon and more regularly

esp as me and deathbypeaches have decided to make wednesdays our regular night for watching movies (my movie education)

my art tutor (i love calling them by their first names and have been over stressing their first name calling a bit me thinks) understands my work more now and im in the process of making a wire copy of my hands by wrappign 1.5 mm wire around them and then connecting them all together and i will present these harsh (they do look so) looking items in a plush velvet setting as a juxtaposition (sp) i will post pics when i get them back

the idea was based on the theme of optical illusions based using body parts

oh by the way the tate modern has a really good instillation piece of art work at the moment by bill viola called five angels of the millenium which everyone should expierience...its fantastic i will tell more if anyone wishes to have the details

embellina is coming down to stay tomorrow and im looking forward to have company

hope you all have a good day and to see you soon
xxx

musing

2003-07-22T21:49:18Z

ideas for this week
to make a very outrageous (sp) outfit which i have designed over the last two days and either wear it or get someone to wear it out at some point in the near future

have started a highly enjoyable course at central st martins this week...the tutor started off by telling us well infact selling us st martins and taking us down the st martins hall of fame telling us how it was the best fashion school in europe (note not as good or competitive as antewerp (sp?)

but i did met the most amazing hungarian girl called dorka (dorothy) and we hit it off immediatly...shes very creative funny intelligent and a pleasure to be with and i am so glad that she is on the coure as everyone else on it is suprisingly normal

there was someone there who copied my work the entire time and kept on looking at my work slightly refining it and presenting it better and having lots of praise...grrr

but on a lighter note i get to make my fifth element/jean paul gauliter/andy warhol styled piece :D

weekend was brilliant...had a really good time seeing various ppl (esp seeing untermensch and ( cybergimp who i bumped into on the tube)...winterkalte were amazing...i had a fab time and everyone was extremely pleasant to me...i felt like i looked like shit but everyone was so lovely...also uwe played my two tracks back to back

*asche rmx by sina- kiss the whip (horny song :D
*manufactura - killing you (original rmx which i prefer)

im happy and i hope that it continues...feeling suspense and enjoyment is always interesting

xxx
iPod is arriving soon :D
zurich sounds amazing im really looking forward to it :D :D :D

cyberpvcfairy @ 2003-07-18T19:05:00

2003-07-18T18:03:11Z

True Goth... You make me proud.

Goth quiz... a good one
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I AM A TRUE GOTH
yes that is true definatly...
thinks carefully before retracting her statement

picture of the old hair which has been rehashed yesterday on venessa's web page http://www.perverseidol.co.uk/gallery/view_photo.php?set_albumName=may-june-2003&id=21_6_03_009 thought not a good one

cyberpvcfairy @ 2003-07-18T18:22:00

2003-07-18T17:38:15Z

dear god
that is why you dont get drunk!!!
cambridge is being visited...i still havent arrived home yet after leaving pepis yesterday...
have new colourful hair because im no longer at boarding school...happy me...far too much plastic but i do like it...not sure what time i will be home as it still has not been discussed
had a very very confused and drunken night last night...me and phosphoresent brought a jug of alcohol when i came up to visit embellina and miss_vicious...
after being met and confusing myself by having many long and ethical conversations with a strange man on the train up there i proceeded to get very drunk with sam
we finished off all the vodka in the house with me drinking as fast as i could (i beat sam) going downstairs to get a drink i would drink one really quickly and take another one up with me...i was sick various times and lost both of my nose studs...the holes have closed (will have to get them repierced :( )
spent a relaxing day here doing nothing having a hang over and watching run lola run...very good...seen some of emilys AMAZING art work...am now jealous and in a bad mood...:(
downloaded lots of music for her while she was away at work...more s.i.n.a *flutter*
I HAVE A NEW ICON showing the new hair (kinda)
"get me to a proper doctor because im fucked" was the saying of the day
see you all soon...i wish there was something to do on a friday night in london
xxx

cyberpvcfairy @ 2003-07-17T10:09:00

2003-07-17T09:20:31Z

ballet was fab
best friend didnt turn up...bastard
so i went on my own and i sat next to a man wearing much more red than me and i had comments from a third person saying..."well im definatly sitting near the too quietest members of the audience...
the cast were so beautiful...the acting and dancing was amazing...the theatre was totally sold out as there had been a documentary about the main dancer in it on the tv and it had been really publicised...and i brought tickets on the off chance
he was able to jump higher than i have ever seen...i have been told that is because he has long legs in comparison to his body...he was so beautiful...i now really really want to go with my parents to cuba
the story was a young man from the countryside moves to Havana and his internal war between the city and the country...he meets many ppl who dance in a modern american way and they take the piss out of his ballet...all of course has a happy ending and he gets the girl and earns there respect by encorporating ballet into modern dancing...
the live music was played by some of the cuban actors...
had a really good time...
couldnt sleep last night..had around 3 hours because im staying at my uncles flat as hes away and i couldnt get through to him to ask him if i could stay...i know hed say yes but i was worried that he would turn up in the morning (as hes flying in today) and get really angry at me (which he wouldnt)
anyway hair is getting redone today...red and white possibly being added in...off to cambridge this evening
anyone know of any good art shows showing atm???
xxx

cyberpvcfairy @ 2003-07-16T15:55:00

2003-07-16T15:03:09Z

back in england
its double the temp here that it is in ireland :(
all is well and i should be heading to the ballet with mike today but hes being horrible and saying he has hayfever and wont be able to come if it isnt better
hes a fucker for letting me down does it all the time :(
still i love him dearly :D hes been brill recently
anyway
uwe is definatly playing at infest :D
happy happy joy joy
if its anything like leipzig it will be amazing its a shame that kellys not playing :(
had a hectic day
*cash card still hasnt arrived
*mum had hidden my store cards so i had no food and no money
*had to wait ages in the bank
*had to retrace my way to the flat 3 times after forgetting various things
*didnt sleep for long enough
*meant to meet up with friends 4 hours ago
*ballet and mike being weird :(
*rain
im still happy though
yes i will come up to cambridge tomorrow to see emily and i may go to cheltenham on friday to see wires and snarfcore if i have the money
see you all soon
winterkalte :D
xxx